The circumstances of growing up would be getting more and more distant to what you used to think would be simple to keep beside. I used to think I wont feel so but reality hits and as hard as I would like to admit, I think distance change everything there is within.
People say, what would be, will be and the true one stays.
How could that be true when you see the relationship you built all your life is starting to be, I dont know, distant?
Perhaps at one point, people let go and just take 2 steps back. Maybe then, it wont be that tiring.
Changes that you cant foresee, no matter how much you try to fight the truth, at one point, you would come to realize, this is the moment.
I think that is how parents feel, how fathers first feel when his daughter found love with another guy, how mom feels when her son starts to love another woman and how I feel towards a whole lot of things, to people, to close ones.
The sensible, the sweet, the person who smiles all the time as if the world would not end at 21st of December 2012 at 11.11am =P, a person who keeps everything inside and acts as if she doesn't care and the person who cant seem to spill even just a tiny bit out to anyone. I blame my past relationship with someone I wish to erase, but then again, I should be thankful that Im way pass that now and i've become stronger to be able to learn from my silly mistakes.
All I want for now, is to have a simple life, appreciate people whom I know deep down how much they love me and those who just wont leave no matter how mean I treat them, I want security, I want to be able to have a glass of wine with my friends and be able to get drunk because I know they will not take advantage of me, I want all this.
Thank you for reading.
From,
Yi
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